Well it has been a while since I have updated the page. We have had quite a bit going on. We recently found out that we are pregnant!!!! When I took the test I could hardly believe it!!! Any emotion that I felt as a mother was quadrupled!! I missed my Carly wishing that I had her in my arms, so that I could tell her she was going to be a big sister. Then I realized she already knew, she was the one getting him or her ready to come to our family. I miss her so much. The only thing that gives me any sense of comfort is knowing that because of the covenants Will and I have made in the temple, as long as we prove faithful, we will have her again.
When I first found out I was pregnant I had a lot of emotion. Guilt, joy, excitement, happiness, apprehensive. I realized what a blessing it is for us to have gotten pregnant with Carly and didn't understand what we had done in our lives to be blessed again. I guess that Heavenly Father really does love us and he knows how much joy we received having Carly.
I find myself thinking I wonder how much this baby will look like Carly. Will he or she have Carly's sweet and patient disposition? Will I be able to tell him or her about their big sister and do her justice?
So we are 16 weeks today and hope to find out soon if it is a boy or girl. We are hoping for a girl, but will not send a boy back!!!!!! We feel extremely blessed to have the opportunity.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Monday, September 1, 2008
My girl....
I just have to say that I think about Carly non-stop. I always just "dreamed" of being a mother, that is now a reality. I will always be her mother. She will be mine forever. I am so glad for a knowledge of the gospel of Jesus Christ. As part of his "plan of happiness" Will and I will raise Carly after this life!!! What a comfort this has been to us in times of deepest despair!!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Carly
Well, let me just say this. I miss my Carly like crazy.
She was born on a Thursday morning. It was the morning of February 23rd after my normal morning visit to the bathroom, although this was anything but normal. I was one day shy of 24 weeks into my pregnancy. Things to this point had been picture perfect.
I went back to my room and told Will "something is wrong", I had some not so normal discharge that was quite concerning. We proceeded to call my sister and also Will's mom. They told us to go to the hospital. I will never forget the drive to get there. There was an overwhelming feeling that things had taken a turn. They wheeled me over to Labor and Delivery from the emergency room. Dr. Watts came in and said that he was going to make sure my water didn't break. About 10 minutes later he came into the room and announced that indeed my water had broken!!! I immediately began to cry!! How could this happen? The pregnancy we had waited and wanted for soooo long was now in jeopardy.....
For fear that deliver would be sooner than later, they transferred me by ambulance to the University of Utah. I was put on strict bedrest, only allowed to shower, go to the bathroom, and be wheeled in a wheelchair to daily non-stress tests. We were sure that we could make it to at least 30 weeks, at least that was what we hoped for. I was taken to Labor and Delivery a couple of times after "non-reasurring stress tests." I had started to develop really bad back pain which I attributed to being on bed rest. The nurse brought me a heating pad and I felt much better.
On the 5th of March, I had another non-reassuring stress test (prior to the test, I had the most excruciating back pain). Again, I was sure that it was just from being in bed for 11 days. They wheeled me back over to Labor and Delivery where I was monitored for a few hours-- getting frustrated with each passing minute, as I was unable to get comfortable. I asked for some sleeping medication, and a heating pad--- still convincing myself that I was having pain from being in bed. At three o'clock in the morning, they woke me up and told me that I was dilated to an 8 and that the baby was coming!!!! How could this be?
Carly was born at 4:14 am on March the 6th--- weighing in at 1 lb and 7 oz. She was just 11.5 inches!! They told us that we could go in and see our "little miracle" at 8:00 am. I was amazed at the tiny little baby that I saw in the incubator!! Tiny, tiny, yet each of her features were perfect!! 10 perfect toes, 10 perfect fingers, tiny little nose!! This was my baby, the child I had waited so long for---- born too soon!!
She was born on a Thursday morning. It was the morning of February 23rd after my normal morning visit to the bathroom, although this was anything but normal. I was one day shy of 24 weeks into my pregnancy. Things to this point had been picture perfect.
I went back to my room and told Will "something is wrong", I had some not so normal discharge that was quite concerning. We proceeded to call my sister and also Will's mom. They told us to go to the hospital. I will never forget the drive to get there. There was an overwhelming feeling that things had taken a turn. They wheeled me over to Labor and Delivery from the emergency room. Dr. Watts came in and said that he was going to make sure my water didn't break. About 10 minutes later he came into the room and announced that indeed my water had broken!!! I immediately began to cry!! How could this happen? The pregnancy we had waited and wanted for soooo long was now in jeopardy.....
For fear that deliver would be sooner than later, they transferred me by ambulance to the University of Utah. I was put on strict bedrest, only allowed to shower, go to the bathroom, and be wheeled in a wheelchair to daily non-stress tests. We were sure that we could make it to at least 30 weeks, at least that was what we hoped for. I was taken to Labor and Delivery a couple of times after "non-reasurring stress tests." I had started to develop really bad back pain which I attributed to being on bed rest. The nurse brought me a heating pad and I felt much better.
On the 5th of March, I had another non-reassuring stress test (prior to the test, I had the most excruciating back pain). Again, I was sure that it was just from being in bed for 11 days. They wheeled me back over to Labor and Delivery where I was monitored for a few hours-- getting frustrated with each passing minute, as I was unable to get comfortable. I asked for some sleeping medication, and a heating pad--- still convincing myself that I was having pain from being in bed. At three o'clock in the morning, they woke me up and told me that I was dilated to an 8 and that the baby was coming!!!! How could this be?
Carly was born at 4:14 am on March the 6th--- weighing in at 1 lb and 7 oz. She was just 11.5 inches!! They told us that we could go in and see our "little miracle" at 8:00 am. I was amazed at the tiny little baby that I saw in the incubator!! Tiny, tiny, yet each of her features were perfect!! 10 perfect toes, 10 perfect fingers, tiny little nose!! This was my baby, the child I had waited so long for---- born too soon!!
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